My first official post and going straight to the deep stuff. So, let’s start with the basics. My mom is from Thailand and my dad is from Finland which makes me a mixed child. Simple, right? Nope.
I grew up mostly in Bangkok for the first 8 years of my life and a bit of Germany in between for 2 years. Then we moved to Turku, Finland where I spent the majority of my life. Throughout it all I was in an international school, full of other kids like me. Throughout it all, I always felt like I was constantly being labeled by other people and still do. I could never truly tell or express how I feel, how I want to label myself because they won’t get it or they will just brush it off and make their own assumptions based on what they see.
In Thailand, people would call me ”Farang” which translates to a white person. I can speak Thai, my mom is Thai. Yes, my dad is white but why the constant labeling? Just because I am half white doesn’t give you the right to discriminate me. When I was younger I never really thought much about it. It’s just another word Thai people call white people. Obviously when you were younger you never really understood why.
So… you say you’re from Finland but you look Asian? Where are your parents from? Now, this is the part that frustrates me the most. Sorry that I came out looking more Asian than white? Thanks for pointing it out, not that I didn’t know
I don’t look Asian enough to be Thai and I don’t look white enough to be Finnish. Where am I suppose to be from? I don’t feel accepted in any of those two societies. It got to a point where I felt lost, everytime someone asks me where I am from I have this constant battle with myself of what to say. Should I say I am from Thailand? Should I say I am from Finland? or should I say I am half Finnish half Thai? People say it’s a blessing to be mixed as it makes you interesting and unique, a bunch of bullshit I say.
My nationality is constantly questioned when the answer is right there.